| Remember Xanga? I am so old now... Ben |
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| I can't ever settle for an ordinary life... I would be dead before I died.
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| I realized something on the drive home... me and a lady from work were talking alot, and she used to be a foster mom as well as teach special ed in school. She had such bad horror stories of kids being neglected, abused, and unloved, and kids with physical dissabilities. I have heard stories like these before, but it got me thinking this time. The Bible makes it perfectly clear that we are to use what talents God gives us to their most full value to increase the value of that which he has invested in us. Now the Bible uses the word talent in the following verses: Matthew 25:14-23; Luke 19:12-19in the context of monetary value, but as a parable. It is funny though because it is not hard to use that same word talent in context of the things in which we are given that set us apart from others in a special way. The thought challenged me because I know I am blessed with so much. Don't get me wrong, I am not conceited by any means, in fact I am humbled at the thought of how badly I have used that which I have been given. God does not give us blessings and expect it to end there. He expects us (and commands us) to turn those blessings around and use them on others. I have been raised in a loving, Godly home, been given a heart for the Lord, been given friends that challenge me, a mind that loves to learn, a home that is more that adequate, food to eat, etc... and yet I am selfish. I dig a hole in the ground and let whatever interest I may have incrued, had I worked to build on what I have been given, been as good as when it was given. I need to figure out what to do with my life to give God the most glory I can I guess is where I am going with this. Anyway, I came home early to sleep so I am going to sleep.
I love you all.
Ben
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| I don't know why I am updating. I am the most stressed out I think I have ever been, but I am also so in love with life right now. I have the most wonderful lady ever. She is the calm in my storm. Her heart is the most amazing thing I have ever discovered. School is so fun but so hard. I don't know how I am going to pay for it. Hopefully I can do something in the stock market. The band is so fun and things are really looking up with it. I am an old man.
It is amazing to realize that we are not the center of the universe, but the purpose of it. We are involved in such a massive story that we can't begin to understand the stakes. I just hope I can hold onto the truth I know and fight the good fight. I am rambling I am so tired.
Goodnight and Goodbye.
Ben
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| Guess that answers that question. She's a keeper and hopefully I am too. Back in school still in my band still in love with God. I am going to be a doctor someday. Mark my words. This is my last xanga post probably.
Ben |
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